Did the guy on CSI just say something about Krispie Kreams? I'm thinking about sugar way too soon. Not thrilled about having a big baby, and I tend to gain about 40 lbs. Perhaps this time it will be different?
Baby blues start so early. I'm always looking for reasons though. So many parts of mothering/parenting, whether physical or spiritual, seem to tie back to survival, the child's of course. Take the pain of labor. When you get up repeatedly in the night with a headache that lasts two weeks, you can think. "Hey, I had a terrible pain birthing her; this is nothing. I can do this."
I have wrapped Savannah's birthday presents. We're picking up fruit, cake, balloons and placing the order for the pizza tomorrow morning. I was pregnant at her last birthday. I feel guilty for what she's been through. My sleep deprivation last September caused some neglet I know. She was used to so much attention. (Perhaps that's an element designed to strengthen the older sibling, give a little shove into the cold, real world. A lot of presidents were firstborns.) Well, this April, I have a chance to make this time different.
